Yesterday I wrote about how I cried like Lauren Conrad. That was very therapeutic, because I had a lot of emotions and needed them to GET OUT. After my cry, I got around to getting over it. Dinner and ice cream with Anna helped significantly.
But then I ended up back at home, alone. I was laying in bed, listening to music, when this beautiful song came on. I have never been able to find it online to share with people, but it’s called Psalm 62 by Portrait of Another. The lyrics are… Psalm 62.
The bridge is the part that says “trust in Him at all times, all people. Pour our your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.”
After the fourth or fifth time it came on repeat, that line hit me.
I had spent a large part of the evening crying and then laughing at my mascara and then whining, then some thinking and staring at the ceiling… and yet God was right there, waiting for me to let my soul find rest in Him, to pour out everything to him. Without expectation or hesitation.
It took maybe five really honest, direct sentences to pour out my heart to God. It wasn’t flowery or ultra-religious words, I was just straight forward and honest and told him what was going on in my heart.
Then, as I was snuggling into my bed, I thought of the lyrics to one of my current fave songs (I have lots of them)…
…and you know what? Pouring out five real, honest sentences to Jesus really did put my heart right. It didn’t fix the problems or dull my pain, but it gave me peace. Jesus said that in this world we’ll have trouble. When I am truly leaving my troubles at the feet of Jesus, the return is not removal of the problem, but is usually the induction of peace. Just a little talk with Jesus does not make it good, but it does make it right.
“In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Jesus {John 16:33}