How in the world is it August already? Why do I literally always start ALL of my blog posts freaking wondering why and how it got to be whatever day/month it is?
Awhile ago we were going through the stuff I’d left in my mom’s garage, getting ready for a garage sale, when I found a letter from September 2014 that I’d addressed to myself to be read in September 2015.
I read it and felt a sinking feeling in my heart. It was encouraging myself to keep on keeping on with stuff I’d turned around in my life: emotions, managing my weight, paying off my debt and working on my blog.
It was like reading a list of all the ways I’ve failed. emotions, weight, debt, this blog.
So I cried about that, because ugh. There’s nobody to blame but myself. All of those unaddressed issues in my life leave me feeling pretty worthless as a person.
Having literally ALL DAY to be in charge of my seconds, minutes and hours makes all of that even worse. I COULD be being more intentional about caring for myself, I COULD be taking time to eat better and/or exercise, I COULD be way more diligent with my finances and I COULD spend time at my computer writing blog posts.
I do all the other easy things.
I honestly feel like there’s a weird switch that’s been flipped in my being where I just can’t seem to make the best decisions for myself. and I keep thinking “well if only ________,” but that thing never happens or matters or anything.
I love and miss you little corner of the internet. Thanks for always being here.
Lately I’ve had a few people come up to me and say “you’re an entrepreneur, you’ll get this,” and I’ve literally looked around uncomfortably and wondered why they would think that.
I’m not an entrepreneur, I’m just a girl who digs through other people’s discarded clothing and sells it on the internet.
and then the other day it just hit me like a ton of bricks. Forget that lie, I am a freaking bad-a. A few years ago I was miserable at a job that I loved but was overworked, underpaid and felt unappreciated. I finally got the courage to quit that job. Landed in another job I hated. Quit that to nanny full time. and while nannying this precious baby boy, I realized… I cannot work for other people. I hate driving to work, I hate being at work, I hate thinking about going to work.
So I quit that and started doing something I LOVE – going to thrift stores and buying stuff I don’t need… but not to keep, to sell.
and now when family needs help, I can provide it. If friends want to get coffee mid-day, I can accommodate it. If I want to fly to Nashville for two and a half weeks…
I don’t have to request time off from anybody except Justen.
I AM FREE, Y’ALL!
Here’s the thing, though. I spent YEARS – literally YEARS – trying to figure out what job I wanted, applying for jobs for the money, and feeling absolutely miserable. Every time Ernie would talk to me about taking a leap of faith and quitting my job, I would give a zillion reasons why I couldn’t do it and I’d hide underneath a cloak of fear.
and now as I think about the past year, deciding not to “get” a job at some point, I realize how heavy my weights were.
I spent a LONG time listening to CAN’T.
I CAN’T quit my job.
I CAN’T trust myself.
I CAN’T make as much money as I do.
I CAN’T sustain something.
I CAN’T this or that.
But “CAN’T” was really a less vulnerable way of saying “I’m scared to…” and I KNOW there are people who can relate to that list, as well as add a crap ton more, and I have a few words I want to tell you.
and you can, scared.
and you can, scared and uncertain.
and you can, scared and uncertain and overwhelmed.
Don’t be stupid about it. Don’t leap before you look a little. Plan a little. Save some money, make a plan, recruit support, take some time to cry for a whole day
and then do it. Scared, uncertain and overwhelmed. Whatever “it” is. You know deep in your soul. Your “it” might be a little vague, like mine (I can’t work for someone else), so you might need to get creative.
Do it WHILE you plan. Do it WHILE you save. Do it WHILE you’re recruiting support and do it WHILE you cry for days at a time.
I never would have believed in myself a fraction of what I do had my friend Ernie not spent so much time encouraging me, pouring into me and celebrating me when I finally did it.
Not everybody has an Ernie in their corner, so I wanted to take a minute to root you on. You CAN sell that smudge-proof lipstick. You CAN start a t-shirt company. You CAN build an online consulting business. You CAN do the thing that makes you forget that making money used to suck. You have within you the ability to take time off without submitting a request.
This is just your friendly reminder than you CAN, you DESERVE IT, and it’s there for the taking. Sparkle on, my friends.
A few years ago I remember getting my first kit of essential oils and kind of staring at them, wondering what I was ACTUALLY going to EVER do with all of those oils. I started with the doTerra Home Essentials Kit (which was so great). After 8 months of ordering one new thing per month, something just CLICKED and I really started using the oils in my every day life.
At first I thought that using oils every day would look like pouring little drops onto my hand and placing it in magic places or something, but that’s not at all what it looks like for our household.
Today I processed our monthly order and I realized that almost ALL of the order was restocking items we use on the regular, so I thought I’d share the ways we use doTerra products in our every day life!
OnGuard Foaming Hand Soap
Of all the items we use daily, this one we probably use more than any other one. Both of our sinks have bottles of OnGuard foaming hand soap. after buying the two dispensers, I now just buy the refill bottles. One of the refill bottles fills up two dispensers, and we tend to go through one refill bottle a month.
Another daily product for us. This was one of the first products I started using from doTerra. We use the OnGuard toothpaste every time we brush our teeth, and when I find myself having to use Crest or Colgate, I realize how much I really love the OnGuard toothpaste.
We’ve discovered that these peppermint beadlets are super multi-functional. Upset stomach? Pop a beadlet. Bad breath? Pop a beadlet. Head starting to hurt? Pop a beadlet. They’re really affordable and help with any daily problems our bodies might have.
Purify Shoe Spray
Shoes can get so stinky, and after months of trying to just deal, I put some Purify + witch hazel + water into a little spray bottle (we’re in the process of getting bigger spray bottles) and spray it into the shoes every night.
OnGuard Hand Sanitizing Spray
Listen, I make a living digging clothes out of giant piles of discarded donations. There’s some NASTY AF stuff in those bins. But I use the OnGuard hand spray afterwards. It’s my go-to hand spray.
Not only do we use purify as spray, but after using the bathroom we often straight up just put a few drops of purify straight into the toilet to help neutralize any stink left over. It’s kinda funny because purify smells like cilantro so our bathroom smells like cilantro most of the time.
Serenity pillow spray + blend
I used to use Lavender on my feet and THEN I got the Serenity blend, which has lavender but also a bunch of other relaxing oils in the blend. It’s my bedtime jam. I made a pillow spray with witch hazel + Serenity + water. Shake well to combine and then spray on linens. I also made the serenity into a rollerball – Serenity oil + Fractionated coconut oil. The Serenity is put on my feet and my spine. Basically I sleep all covered in Serenity.
Lemon + Witch Hazel Toner
For YEARS I’ve sworn by the lemon + witch hazel toner magic, and I’ve seriously seen a HUGE reduction in my breakouts since I’ve started using this. We usually just squirt a little witch hazel on a cotton swab and then put a drop or two of lemon on top and wipe it across our faces.
So there you have it! I think it’s easy to buy oils and get overwhelmed at how exactly to use them, so I hope this helps y’all start thinking of ways to incorporate essential oils into your life. If you use essential oils, leave me a comment and tell me what you most commonly use them for!
For WEEKS, I’ve been telling Justen it’s time to put away our “spring” sign (it’s literally the only spring decoration we have) and he’s kept saying “it’s still spring!” and now it is FINALLY and OFFICIALLY summer.
This is what summer makes me feel like:
Like. haayyyy this is living!!!!
As John Mayer sings, a little bit of summer’s what the whole year’s all about. There is so much I want to do this first summer of being married, especially since I spent last summer in Nashville. Not that I didn’t do cool things while in Nashville, because I definitely did.
But! Here’s my 2018 Summer Bucket List. I did one of these a few years ago, but here’s another one.
SO! How are y’all feeling about summer?! what’s on your bucket list for this sunniest season of 2018?!
This is SO LATE! I literally got alllllll of these details and numbers all ready and APPARENTLY I forgot to actually post this. I’m eye rolling SO HARD right now.
This month we did a pretty good job of paying off debt. Nothing super great, but I see that we’re nearly at 23% of our debt paid off this year and our goal is to have paid off 33% this year so we are doing really well. I wish I could say we were working extra hard and scaling back, but we’re really just coasting right now.
I think once we’re on to Justen’s car, it’s game. on. because #1. that number doesn’t fluctuate, and #2. freeing up his car payment will give us so. much. more. money in our monthly budget (the payment isn’t insane, but it’s our 3rd largest set payment behind rent and my car).
But first the Southwest card has just become a beast, because it just keeps going up and down. I 100% understand why Dave Ramsey says to CUT UP your credit cards because it’s so hard to get on top of right now. It’s connected to my essential oils account and my Southwest travel account and a bunch of small recurring payments (like hosting, Netflix, etc) and I’ve never gone in to change those. We’ve had a few unexpected expenses come up that we’ve put on the card and then I use my Poshmark money to pay it down each month, but it’s hard when those unexpected expenses are huge. So anyway. Even though that’s sometimes really frustrating, I’m just remembering that we’re so on track for hitting our goal and I don’t need to be disappointed that I’m not on track to be an overachiever, lol 😉