Basically I can’t stop thinking about how having poor self-esteem is not the same as being insecure. Stepping on sidewalk cracks makes me insecure, but it doesn’t change a think about me. In the same way, sometimes the moments I feel my self-esteem plummet are the very moments I acknowledge how loved I am. The two just aren’t the same.
—
I’ve been thinking about this, too. Remember when the disciples are in the boat with Jesus and that storm is raging on, and Jesus is… freaking SLEEPING! Can you imagine the disciples wondering over and over “HOW can he sleep through this??” Me too, disciples. Me too. There are many storms in my life where I feel as  if Jesus is catching some z’s, completely oblivious to the imminent danger ahead. Glad I’m not alone.
—
The new day dawns and I am practicing my purpose once again
it is fresh and it is fruitful if I win, but if I lose… I don’t know…All will be well, even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself.
All will be well.
You can ask me how, but only time will tell.
—–
I’ve kinda started biting my nails again, which is so unfortunate because I’ve been doing so well.
—–
That’s all, kind of. There’s always more but I’m too tired… maybe lazy. but mostly tired.
i don’t know anything about you. i’ve only read one post of yours but for some reason, i felt the need to comment on your page. call it divine inspiration i guess.
anyway, i guess i want/need someone to talk to about God. someone who doesn’t know a lick about me. i’ve been questioning some things lately and have struggled with a few things over the past month or so.
i suppose you probably think i’m a creeper for just randomly posting that on your page! haha! i promise i’m not depressed, just at that point in my walk when i either take that leap forward, backward or stay put. i really want to go forward but i have hesitations. i guess the best thing to say is i’m scared. and nervous.
anyway, feel free to hit me up on my blog if you’d like to spread some good advice. or feel free to delete this comment if it’s entirely way too creepy! haha.
have a fantastic day.
j.
i forgot to sign out of my old blog when i posted the above comment. i’ve recently deleted that blog so feel free to email me instead.