The other day, I thought back to the first picture of fall that I posted this year. It wasn’t actually fall, it was April. I’d just been blindsided and I felt so confused. I walked back to this little leaf three times before I realized why I was so drawn to it. This little leaf was confused, too! It was SPRING, not FALL. but there it was, this little red leaf on the wet ground. I used it as an opportunity to adopt for myself an idea that I’ve clung to for over half of 2015. #thiscurrentseason.
Here I am. It’s fall. Once again, God has blown me away.
I got to work on my finances and have lowered my debt by 13.6% since May.
I’ve lost 23 pounds since April.
I’ve blogged nearly every work day since April.
I went back to regularly attending New Heights, and I spent the past month attending Sunday evening services at Imago Dei Eastside. I joined a women’s group at New Heights and a SKATEBOARDING ministry (don’t even ask, because I actually don’t know) through Imago Dei.
This year has been an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least. My heart has been hurt multiple times – by boys I thought were my friends. I think that’s why I so desperately love my guy friends who are married to girls I love… they are safe. They have no motives, no purpose to be irresponsible with my heart. They just take me as I am and are fairly consistent in their teasing, their unsolicited advice, their ability to love me in a way that couldn’t happen if they were single. That’s a side note.
God has been so faithful.
I quieted the #thiscurrentseason talk on social media, but let’s be real… this current season just rolls into the next one. God has done great things in my life in the past half of a year, but a lot of itÂ hurt. I regret none of it, because that hurt and brokenness has revealed more to me about the goodness and faithfulness of God, and I don’t know if I could learn those same things if I felt like I had everything under control.
Someone recently told me to listen to the #DeathToSelfie series by Steven Furtick at Elevation Church. I was listening tonight about God meeting Jacob in the middle of nowhere, all about how God is in the midst of transition and in the midst of where you came from and where you are going. Which is where we all are. and we need to be right there, in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of transition, and not be consumed with our desired destination. I wish I had my life more together, but when I look at where I am now and where I was last year at this time, I feel like I am a whole new person.
I’ve been listening to Desert Song a lot and I love the line that I took the title of this blog post from –
All of my life
in every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing.
I have a reason to worship.
Regardless ofÂ where we find ourselves today, our God isÂ alive. Our God is near. Our God is at work. Our God is the only source of true freedom. and that alone should be enough reason to surrender our hearts.
God is my victory
and He is here.
Do you feel a new season coming on? Are you excited for it?
My new season hasn’t come yet. I’m anticipating it anxiously though, because this particular season is really really rough. I feel like falling apart almost every day with stress and worry, but Psalm 46:5 helps.
That is my very favorite worship song!
If I had a hashtag, it would be #nowisnotforever. I like it because it’s good for both the seasons of joy and ease as well as for the season of confusion of doubt. But if I’m really honest, it really becomes my mantra in the seasons of doubt and confusion. Either way, now is not forever and God is my victory and He is here.
Also,this is going to sound so church-y and christianese, but I feel like Brooke Fraser really has an anointing when it comes to writing worships songs. Or really just song writing in general, I guess.
I love this post!