Four whole months with Madeleine. The day before she turned 4 months marked a year since I found out we were having a baby. I’ll never forget any of it. I’d experienced implantation bleeding (from when she nestled herself into my uterus as a teeny tiny egg) and researched why my body randomly bled for 6 hours. That’s when I discovered implantation bleeding and messily peed on a stick one Sunday evening. Two very clear lines showed up and I calmly washed my hands, walked out and nodded to Justen. I started sobbing and said I didn’t know what to feel.

As we were taking these pictures, Justen said “hey, she’s a quarter of the way to a year!” and I sat there, lip quivering and eyes filling with tears and he knew it was way too soon to talk like that to me.

How fitting that the 2nd month of life with Madeleine ends on Thanksgiving. I am SO THANKFUL that we made it her entire second month without a night in the hospital, a trip to her doctor or Urgent Care. SO THANKFUL we have the most perfect, healthy little baby in the whole entire world.

One whole month. I can’t believe it’s ONLY and ALREADY been one month of knowing this little face.

We’ve had quite the month. 2 nights in the delivery room, 3 nights in the NICU, two trips to Urgent care. I should make an entire post about her first week of life, but instead I’m going to share it here.

Like I’d shared in the post about her birth, when Madeleine was born, I suffered a postpartum hemorrhage. While in the hospital, I had an iron infusion and two blood transfusions. I was casually told that the blood loss might make my milk come in late.