Four whole months with Madeleine. The day before she turned 4 months marked a year since I found out we were having a baby. I’ll never forget any of it. I’d experienced implantation bleeding (from when she nestled herself into my uterus as a teeny tiny egg) and researched why my body randomly bled for 6 hours. That’s when I discovered implantation bleeding and messily peed on a stick one Sunday evening. Two very clear lines showed up and I calmly washed my hands, walked out and nodded to Justen. I started sobbing and said I didn’t know what to feel.