Future | Past

I used to think it was weird that God speaks to me in visions. They’re not future-telling or anything, but every so often I get hit with this very clear visual of what the truth of a moment is like. Deeper insight into what is going on around me, if you will. But God’s got a history of speaking in dreams and visions, so I needn’t feel like a weirdo.

This whole vision was deeply inspired by two things.

First, by this quote from Love Does by Bob Goff:

Bob Goff quote // Love Does // stephanieorefice.net

Second, this song by John Mark McMillan:

I was at church and it was offering song time, which means we were all seated. We sang the song I shared, Future/Past by John Mark McMillan. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my head on my knees, letting my knees collect the tears dripping out of my eyes. Because that song is beautiful and my spirit is sensitive.

Then.

I got this image of a hospital room. My mom was preparing to give birth to me, and I saw angels leaning over excitedly saying to each other “there she is! there she is!” because since the beginning of creation, God has BEAMED with love over me. and he had prepared Heaven for May 30th, 1985. The day he would debut his masterpiece for the world to see. The long-awaited day when SHE would enter the world. and the excitement was contagious.

I was completely overwhelmed. and then immediately..

another hospital room.

I wasn’t an age, I wasn’t an affliction… I was just alone in a hospital room, dying. Alone. Dying alone. One of my biggest fears. But I saw angels leaning over excitedly saying to each other “here she comes! here she comes!” because for the entirety of my life, God has BEAMED with love over me. and he had prepared Heaven for whatever day that will be. The day he will retire his masterpiece from public display to private, cherished collection. The long-awaited day when SHE would enter the Kingdom.  and the excitement, despite my fears, was contagious.

You are my future and my past // John Mark McMillan // stephanieorefice.net

 

All of this stuff in the middle.. it seems so big, so heavy, so trying. Don’t get me wrong, it’s important. It’s eternal stuff, and it’s important. But from the beginning, God has been there with a giant smile on his face, singing over me. and he’s doing it right now, and he’ll keep doing it, and he will sing me right into Heaven. and I need to remember that every moment of every day, and so do you. That truth could mean the difference between coward and courage, between fear or faith, between life that is good and life that is overflowing. It changes things, because it’s a big truth and it overshadows a lot of the dumb, heavy stuff we deal with.

Don’t forget who has been in your corner from Day 1.

And You.
You are my first, you are my last.
You are my future and my past.

 

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18 Comments

  1. May 18, 2015 / 1:43 pm

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE this post! Do you have any idea how hard it is to find someone else in the world who has these kinds of visions? I TOTALLY understand what you are saying! God has spoken to me many, many times in the same manner. Thank you for sharing this beautiful message. I have linked it to my blog round-up #7 – I just love it so much!!

    • May 19, 2015 / 10:19 am

      oh i’m so glad you can relate!! i sometimes have a hard time talking about them – it’s not like a big crazy “important” vision or anything, but it’s a way God shares truth and comfort with me, and i’ve found it to be SO IMPORTANT to ME.

      thank you so much for linking up to my post. i started this new thing to maybe drive traffic to people who support me, up under blogging it says “linked” and i added your blog post to that saying you’d linked my post!! thank you so much again <3

  2. May 18, 2015 / 4:22 pm

    Oh, my word, Stephanie! I am sitting here in tears! This was SO beautiful. You have such a wonderful gift for writing and making the reader see exactly what you are seeing. What an amazing experience you had when God gave you these visions! No, you are certainly not weird, and you are in great company with many of the Bible greats!! 🙂 This was such an encouraging, deeply moving post. I am so thankful you shared your heart. Much love to you. 🙂

    • May 19, 2015 / 10:27 am

      CHERYL!
      i’m SO GLAD God used this to touch you. and thank you for the reassurance that i’m not actually weird in this!! 🙂 it’s actually taken me awhile to be okay talking about it, but i figure if God’s telling me and putting it on my heart to share, well then i’d better get to sharing, right?? 🙂 <3

  3. May 18, 2015 / 10:24 pm

    I love this so much. “Here she comes!” made me cry. It’s so true, and we fail so often to understand HOW VERY excited God is ABOUT us. <3

    • May 19, 2015 / 10:29 am

      allie –

      yes! i love the verse that says he delights over us with singing. i imagine they’re love songs about how much he loves to watch us function as children completely surrendered and dependent on him. what a firm foundation to step out into the world with, you know?

  4. Mary
    May 19, 2015 / 2:29 am

    I am blessed to be your neighbor today at Testimony Tuesday. Your words speak of a deep love for God and the close relationship that you cherish. Your visions are ones that make birth and death such a beautiful thing. Thank you for sharing something so personal and raw.

    • May 19, 2015 / 10:31 am

      mary! thank you so much for stopping by and encouraging me. i’m so glad my honesty is encouraging to people – sometimes when we write blogs we have no idea how people will respond, and i’m encouraged by your comment! <3

  5. May 19, 2015 / 5:12 am

    I love how you show your deep love for God in your words Stephanie, and how you remind us of God’s deep love for us. Beautiful.

    • May 19, 2015 / 10:33 am

      nicki!
      thank you thank you thank you for your words. i hope you were encouraged by mine 🙂

  6. May 19, 2015 / 12:33 pm

    Beautiful post!

    • May 19, 2015 / 1:32 pm

      thank you so much sarah 🙂 <3

  7. Susan Burfoot Mead
    May 19, 2015 / 3:38 pm

    Lovely, encouraging psot!

  8. Kelly Hausknecht Chripczuk
    May 21, 2015 / 4:03 am

    HI Stephanie – welcome to #SmallWonder. A loved masterpiece, indeed. Happy upcoming birthday – may you feel the love that is yours.

  9. Hazel Moon
    May 21, 2015 / 5:18 pm

    You are blessed to see visions and have dreams. I do know the angels get excited about many things, and love to watch, laugh and play when we are actively worshiping Jesus. I have been reading an interesting book about angels and their work on earth in tandem with Jesus and the Holy Spirit. As I read this book: by Kevin Basconi, my own spirit jumped for joy – similar to movement of a babe in the womb. May you enjoy your birthday. Mine is tomorrow and I am quite a bit older than you 🙂 Thank you for sharing with us here at Tell me a Story.

  10. Laurie Collett
    May 24, 2015 / 7:19 pm

    Praise God that He created each of us unique, as His workmanship for His specific purpose! What a beautiful, encouraging post! Linked up with you at Still Saturday — hope you’ll stop by Saved by Grace for a visit!
    God bless,
    Laurie
    http://savedbygracebiblestudy.blogspot.com/

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