Gossip.

I gossip.
A lot.
So much that is disgusts me.

It’s something I’ve always struggled with, but I’ve let it not become a big deal because instead I focus on the things I don’t do – drink alcohol, do drugs, or have sex.

Over and over today there has been a huge brick weighing my heart down, telling me to SHUT MY MOUTH.. and each time, it has been ignored and the gossip justified by it being “neutral information” or “relevant information.”

Tonight as I was getting ready for bed, this little vision came to me quickly.. of me approaching someone I’ve gossiped about, confessing this sin, and apologizing, and then asking if we can pray together about it. and then seeking out the next person I have gossiped about, confessing this sin, apologizing, and praying.. over and over and over until I have confessed and apologized and prayed with all of my brothers and sisters I have spoken irresponsibly of.

There are some verses I really need to pray into my heart. For now we will start with Proverbs 10:19, which says –

“When words are many, sin is not absent
but he who holds his tongue is wise.”